This week was the end of our first immune treatment cycle, and we were scheduled to test on Thursday 10/11 to see if I was pregnant. Of course, I didn't hold out until Thursday and started testing on Tuesday, but all tests were indisputably negative. It was kind of a weird experience because I really felt pregnant and was really thinking we were going to see a second pretty pink line on the test strip. The fact that Monday was Ziggy's due date didn't make the week any easier, as I kept thinking that in the alternate reality where I never had a miscarriage, I'd probably be bringing a baby home this week. Luckily I did get a decent amount of snuggle time in with the other fabulous babies in my life (Parker, Isla, and Lyla). As good as that feels and as much as I love it, it does little to quell the deep desire for a little one to call my own. My heart aches for a baby.
So, now it's on to cycle #2. I have a couple of ideas for changes to make this time around, most notably that I will be going back to acupuncture. I realized that when I was doing acupuncture regularly (with a stellar acupuncturist who specializes in women's fertility issues), I got pregnant every cycle. So maybe that is what we need to put us over the edge and get a positive that sticks this month. So I have an appointment set up this week.
In other news, I'm off to Florida on Thursday for a quick conference presentation Friday morning and a chance to hang out with one of my favorite fellow scholars for ~27 hours. Then next week it's Boston for another quick talk at NSGC and a weekend escape with J. Looking forward to a couple little getaways, both physically and mentally. It also helps that I get to take a two-week break from the Lovenox injections -- my belly will appreciate that.
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